Thursday, March 24, 2011

Long overdue

    After having a heart to heart with my friends about my blog this morning, Bill motivated me to post again, and stop my writing hiatus. Really i could use the excuse that i was busy but that isn't really true. I found time to watch TV and do other things so i'll get right to the issue of sorts. i didn't post because i didn't feel like i was letting anyone down by not posting. i checked my stats earlier in the week and this justified my hiatus, as my newest posts hadn't gotten any views, and now they have had one each...so thank you to that one viewer of my blog. Anyways, I'm choosing to keep writing because i didn't start this blog to make friends, but to get my thoughts out and perhaps be able to look at my issues in a different light. So be prepared, if you still choose to read on occasion. Welcome to my blog....MY BLOG!

I'm tired, tired of trying to please people and working my ass off towards it and getting nothing in return. What is really bothering me at the moment is my so called "friends" from back home. were they really friends? That is what my mind has been turning over and over. When i came to university, I expected to keep in close contact to most of them but despite my herculian effort at the begining of the year....most of which has stopped, no one cared enough to return my effort. I wasn't asking a lot, just that if say i sent you a text, text back, or if i wrote you on facebook, write back...I really don't think i was asking too much. Now, i should clarify, that some of the people keep in contact with me as much as they can, and I am soo happy that they return my effort. Friendship is best maintaned when both parties put the effort in.  And I am surprised by the people that do keep in contact. When i left Pembroke last summer i figured that some people wouldn't keep in contact, because we were not that close, and our friendship would slowly fizzle away and die....but it was those people who choose not to let it die. Unlike people i considered myself close to, these people gave a shit about my life and thought maintaining our friendsthip was worthwhile.

This summer will be interesting. I choose not to pretend to be friends with people that don't really give a rats ass about me, and instead choose to spend my precious time with people who care.

So for any fake friends that may read this in the future...

FUCK YOU!

xoxoxo
Becca

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

one life

Yesterday was the aniversary of the death of my cousin Lory. she was a young adolescent when she died in a car accident. I never met her, as she died before i was born. She would be around 37 if she was still alive right now. i decided to write about this because even though years have passed, her death still affects the lives of the people who knew her.

I don't think you ever get over the death of a loved one. Their memories and lessons they taught you linger in your heart and mind forever.
Last year i lost two people i knew. We weren't close friends but still their deaths impacted me. It made me realise how mortal we actually are and that life is too short to waste worrying about the future all the time.  You need to have fun while you are young, experience things, and do spontaneous and crazy things that make you smile and fuck the people who judge you for it.
Thats why i  do stupid and crazy things,  I don't regret anything in my life because every experience, friensthip, hardship, moment, shaped me into who I am today. and I like who I am.

I'd just like to thank everyone who helped me make me who I am today. Everyone has impacted me and i've impacted you in some way too.

So just hold your friends and family close, and let them know how much you love them and appreciate their presence in your life. Have fun and experience things, don't worry and fret your life away. Life is too short and you ae not given a second chance. have no regrets and keep your heart open to new people. even though it may hurt you will beinfit from it in the end.

RIP Lory, Mike, Emily.

You are missed.

xoxo.
Becca

Saturday, March 5, 2011

SPIDERMAN!!!

Hi blog followers!


Keeping with the general subject of love from my last post, I will let you in on a semi-secret (only if u really know me you would know this) of mine. I am in love with Spiderman. Now i know what you all are thinking....he's a fictional character....but that didn't stop girls from falling in love with Edward from Twilight. And at least in Spiderman's story, it’s not mythical powers that give him his superhuman abilities...but a fluke scientific accident of sorts.


Spiderman is two people in one, the nerdy Peter Parker, and the crime-fighting superhero....and i love both of these parts....especially the nerdy part. I have a thing for the endearing nerdy type....and Peter Parker embodies that entirely. I love dorks, and nerds but they have to have a few qualities that keep them from playing dungeons and dragons in their basement forever lol.  I love smarts in a man....and Peter defiantly has those.
Peter is dedicated. He is working at  the newspaper, and does well in school...which in itself is pretty good....but then on top of that...he saves the city from bad guys. That's impressive as hell.  And also the effort that it must take in order for him to keep his alternate life secret is commendable.


The one draw back of his full life....is that i don't know where i would fit in. Thats a sobering thought.


 I know that I've described superman as well as spiderman...with the nerdy guy with the secret life....but Spiderman beats superman in my mind every time. I don't know what it is....perhaps its that Spiderman gets his ass kicked sometimes before he finally beats the bad guys...while superman is near invincible...which kinda takes the fun out of the story.


Anyways....Spiderman is the love of my life and if i ever find someone i want to spend time with...tell him of my obsession...and its a secret dream of mine to be seduced by spiderman....hahaha


So there is some insight into my messed up psyche. Hope you enjoyed...


Who is the most "do"able superhero in your opinion??






And being honest....Peter looks damn fine in his spandex outfit.