Sunday, January 15, 2012

Trauma

Has one experience in your life ever completely changed you?

This happened to me. My friend died in a car accident about a week and a half ago, and even though i'm functioning again, I feel like a part of me will be forever numb or broken. I get emotional for no real reason about things that are upsetting, but do not require as much energy as i put into feeling upset about them.

I think it is a compound of factors. My friend dying, is the main one i'm sure, but stress in my family life, as well as one of my best friends ignoring/ditching me because of a boy, it just becomes too much sometimes and i think i've snapped. I think this will heal as i heal after losing a close friend, but I doubt that i will ever be the same.

This experience has showed me who my true friends are, the ones who cared enough to check in on me, and not just a cursory glance, but to actually take the time and make sure i was alright.  I"ll never forget you and your care. It means more to me than you will ever know, and i will never be able to repay you.  This is defiantly one of my more sappy posts, but i think it is suiting after having gone through such a tragedy.  I'm sorry if this brought your day down at all, but this forum helps me sort through my thoughts, and I appreciate your support in this difficult time.


xoxoxo Becca